hops around
somersaults

WHERE IS MY AVID FAN AUDREY?

she is missing

ok lar, i msg AUDREY, she replied.
I CALL HER,
she don't answer.

WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

today met emily clara and julie.
haha. we are evil.
ok julie is not.
we laugh at photos. erm, did we snigger?

CLARAAAAAAAAA
i called her claire
then kare la.
then finally eclair

i want eat ice kacang
sore throat
i think im falling sick
damn it.

yile is away away and away

i'm pretty afraid of what's in the future.
pretty, why am i always using the word pretty.
im PETRIFIED
HORRIFIED
and died.

STOP COMPARING

i don't like myself
for something i did

STOP BEING FAT

i don't like myself for being fat.
hahahaha FAT
fat fat fat

aaaaaaaaaa
i want see doctor lar
itchy itchy itch itch
bathe also no use.
aaaaaaaaaaaa

TO MY DEAREST ELIM MEIMEI.

lol. to scare you with font size.
it's not big enough.
but...... :)

sian. where's my audrey lar.

i am so going to visit the doctor on tuesday.
once i scratch my hands, it'll have a big patch bulging out, like mosquito bite, but damn big.
and it's damn scary.

well. im sorry elim that i didn't give u a birthday card. but then......
:D i hope u like the chocolates lar. dunno u eat already or not.

being back.
there's actually nothing much to do except study lar.

Zzz right. lol

nobody free to shop with me
nobody is free to talk to me
i have no bed for another week.
i should have stayed there, at least got a bed.
i've got to keep paying for the rent over there even though im back.
i've got to keep thinking what am i going to do tomorrow.
sometimes i wish im there
but sometimes i wish im here
lol. i miss popo lar
she damn cute can

i wore the off shoulder shirt and the day i return i said hi to her
she tug at the off shoulder part of my shirt to make it higher
CONSERVATIVE HUH.
i mean she can't communicate with us.
that's all she can do.
make some noise. :) sometimes even though i don't know if she's clear minded.
but she's still cute to me.
i'll purposely give my hand to her,
and she'll pat it. :) cute right.

3 relatives passed away in a month.
scary or not.
i'm scared of next year
i don't think im coming back during 1 mth holiday
this means that i won't see anyone of u here for 9 mths.

which means my r/s is going to face an even harder obstacle.
4 mths seemed quite tricky for us.
i felt that it weren't the same for us on the first week i'm back.
i totally hated the feeling of the changes.
it's hateful..

if audrey were here, she'll know how to appease my moody moody mood.
but luckily the awful feeling's gone yesterday when i see him.
it's actually possible to ignore the feeling.
i guess i just need more time with him.
something he can't provide.
:) raaaaaaaaaa. i need to be stronger.
sometimes i just couldn't be.

it's still nice to be in love.
really nice.
it's awful to see everyone else holding hands when im alone on the street.
so i just look away lol.

let's all be in love.

AND OH.

if someone would kindly HELP ME TIDY UP MY ROOM.
notes fly here and there.
bed is full of stuffs and these days i sleep without clearing. lol.
jacket, blanket, tissue box, notes, shorts

LOL.
PIGGGGG STY.
pig style.

don't how to pack.
start from where ar?!

if yile's here.
i'll gladly make him do the job.
JUST KIDDING LAR.

erh. i missed his calls that day.
and i felt quite bad.
cos he called at 8am?! when i turned in like 2+?
and i didn't manage to see the msg that he's going to call until i woke up LAR. 20mins after his calls. don't know why i set my phone silent that day.
i don't usually do that unless i go out.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM........
well. it's FATE. no more fate.
:(

my mum said something and i felt quite bad. i can't say it out. maybe complaint to ahboon or audrey later.

alot happened these months.
deaths,cancers,

SCARYBELLY.

ooh. my dad received his birthday card just on time.
but granduncle passed on two days ago.
shit.
i was actually ok about it.
now.
i realised.
i should be sad.
because.
there isn't...salv.
and his daughter, an aunt,
also passed away less than a year ago. :(:(:(

wasn't close to granduncle but.
heard that he really doted on my dad and uncle when they were young.
my grandfather passed away when they were kids like 7 and 2?
so granduncle will buy presents for them whenever he comes back from sailing.
so sweet right.

:( he's gone.

HELP ORGANIC CHEM.

lol. can't help being crazy again. its now like 6.10am
my next paper is at 5.45pm until 8pm?
and im. pretty sure.
i won't make it
and i'm pretty sure the next paper at 8am tmr issogoingtokillme. i've got barely 12 hrs to study and sleep for the next one.

remember, do not remember all the drugs name but just understand the mechanism behind it.
and you know the notes at like ______________ this thick.
considering 31 lectures in all. and there's like a whole long list of DRUGS!!!!
drugs. DRUGS. DRRRRRRRRRRRRRUGS. and guess what.

BIOM does not provide PAST YEAR PAPERS. HELL. and there hasn't been any tutorials at all for you to DO QUESTIONS. who the hell know what's coming out tmr ar??!?!?!?!?! i can list a few drug names only. lol. codeine. morphine, cocaine. (ALL ADDICTIVE DRUGS) lol. RECEPTOR? can't remember..

pretty mad.
mad pretty.


audrey is my avid reader :)
yay.
shelovesme.
yay.
shecuttingasingletitledilovespooky.
andiguaranteehertoppingtheuschart.
LOL
MAD OR NOT.
you tell me mad or not.

i've got a sore eye.not sure why.
could be mascara's fault. but. i hadn't worn it for days since im always cooped up in the house.
THEREFORE THE CONCLUSION IS.
i don't know.
but it's pretty disgustingly RED and RED and RED?!

i'm going out to spread to fellow students during exam. hahahaha.

YOUBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.
HELP!

CAI AH BOON.

hahaha. happy birthday!! i still remember about mistaking your birthday as 7th december 2 years ago.

i lousy friend lor. lol. wish you 1 month later.

:S hahaha. youboon.

hereby wishing u a very very happy birthday.
that the year ahead for you will be better than ever.
:) thank you for being such a TRUEEEEE friend.
(: you always make me think of how my r/s should go without making too much comments.
:) you don't ask me to do this or that.
(: you protect yile more than me lor. lol.
:) when im angry, u are always able to find excuse for him, and in the end, i'm not angry anymore.
(: are you my friend or his?!

NEVERTHELESS.

i'm really fortunate to have a bunch of good friends and cousins around me.
they never fail to make my day even though im not at home in sg.

THANK YOU ALL!!!.