not telling my mum about him is a mistake
but by telling her is even a bigger mistake

sighss.

haha.
argh
eat myself up
my head is in my stomach
my feet at my gullet
my toe at my throat


:D
mad or not
clara went hongkong
doubt she'll get to see
so i won't type hainanese to her.
lol.

IM A LITTLE TIRED.
today candy XXXXXX damn lot of people la.
stand until want mad, dont want to mad, mad or not mad

leg pain

mad

aaaaaa

aaaaaaaaaaaa

think u should stop reading
it's not interesting.
BAN this page ok

don't ever think of reading it again.
if u come back
i'll box u

box box box.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
im sleepy
eepy
iipy
ip
iii
eeeee

i've been lazy lazy and lazy
LAZY LAZY
and LAZY, lazy and lazy.

and lazy and lazy and lazy lazy

don't ask me why.
but i hate to communicate these days.
less words
shut up.

and i must apologise
for not replying to sms.
it's just the feeling.
i like to reply ppl when the phone is on my hand when sms comes.
and i dread to reply when i didnt see the msg until long.

and there's certain people i MUST reply.
like job thingy or emergency whatever.

maybe over at australia.
i've been trained to not sms.
because its bloody freaking expensive. 25cents per post.
can u imagine i used to send like >500 sms a mth.
and if i do that over there.
:) YOU SPONSOR ME HAR.

hahaha. so i must say FORGIVE ME.
i'm very very very used to not reply sms.
but i'm learning to kick away that bad habit.

yile says that i only reply to certain people.
him, youboon and xinyi.

but yile's sms i sometimes also dont reply :S
sorry lar.
but it all depends on the stupid feeling.

didnt mean to.

i've been so lazy that.
i feel bad.
i used to give him presents. or cards.
now u threaten to skin me alive,
then i'll probably make one for him. lol.
i think i hadn't given him a card for more than 60days.
my bad.

ALERT.
content below is for girls.
Guys, unless u wanna really understand your current,future gf or wife.


ERH.
and.
shit thing is.
i really now believe that drinking cold/ice water will make u have menstrual cramp.
because in australia i drank like HOT/VERY WARM water everyday
didn't have a nice kettle to retain the water.
had one plastic and i felt that im drinking plastic water.
so i always boil and pour directly to cup.
and if im thirsty like mad.
i just blow and try to drink it immediately.
siao hor.
even if the weather is like 32 degrees out there
i drink almost boiling water.
hahaha.

mad not.
i say its mad.
and my house dont have space nor equipment to make ICE.
so.
i didn't touch much ice water for 4 months
which was a good thing because
no menstrual cramp AT ALL.

and i was scared for almost a week.
because that auntie never come lar.
i thought im falling ill, maybe something wrong with my body because it has never been late for more than 4 days.
and it was late for like 8-9 days.
until i prayed about it.

i think and think and think. its because of medication or the jab i took for allergy. irritating.
my date usually very on time de lar.


i think God will also find it funny.
i prayed for "auntie" to come lar.
and first time i prayed about it, i felt i wasn't very sincere also. lol. perhaps because i didnt want it to come together with cramp.
and second time i prayed about it,
it came lar. :) hahaha. mad not.
praying for it to come.
but cramp again lar. lol.
took painkillers aaaaaaagain.
and. i had to go out with the cramp.
and never mind.
and the painkiller never really work leh.
still pain despite an hour after taking.
so i prayed again.
and taaaaaaaaa daaaaaaaaaa.
no cramp. :D
i was even able to drink cold stuff by evening without cramping.
sometimes if i drink cold stuff with auntie,
whoa. cramp two days.
usually only one.
haha.

for guys. i think it'll be damn damn sweet if you provide a cup of hot chocolate for your gf on such days. but first she must announce to you that her auntie comes. lol. and i bet u'll have this LOOK on the face because her "auntie" is not related to you.
you'll never understand how painful cramps ar.

yile never provide me with hot chocolate. BUT BUT BUT.
he's still sweet lar. hahaha.

BOOGIE

i realised

it's a nice feeling

*hops around the room*

where's audrey huh.
hahahaha.

mr chua youboon has a big nose
swollen nose

mr kou shui
has spent alot of time with me

what can i say
but THANKS.

i mean he could have went out with others
:S or others all working or busy
LOL. thats why bo bian, ask me out
HAHAHAHA.

later he see this sure....... ><

i told him i feel that im falling in love again. lol
then he said something like, u mean u haven't been in love with me.
hahaha.
well sometimes
sometimes perhaps.
u just forgot the feeling of falling in love, when you're already in love.

:)
well. i hadn't regret my decision abt him.

wahahaha.
hongsheng......

nice to have him around :D

bugging

:) i realised im still in love. hahaha.
with everything.
:O
never changed.

headache loves me
i hate headache
headache is a pain
i hate pain
pain is irritating

Eh.
cant believe im starting work
lol.
cross fingers.
:D im headachey
but im using pc
and im off to the TV soon

LOVE I LOVE TO BE IN LOVE BE IN LOVE IS TO BE IN LOVE I LOVE TO BE IN LOVE

it isnt the same anymore

i guess i've drifted.

what.
notabout yile lar

well. my relationship with God i guess.
trying to make amends.

hope its not too late.
why am i so lazy to even pray longer than 1minute.

ragh.
maybe im avoiding Him.
i dont like myself
dont like me
im in deep shit
not sure what i should do next though

it used to be a straight path for me
for others paths that aren't so straight
now its opposite

i wish
i hadnt.