Thursday, January 1, 2009
GRUESOME
TORNED
TEARED
that's us.
we tored each other to pieces
and mend them back.
irony.
mentally
physically
torture.
RAGH.
that's new year for me.
for us.
slipping away.
from those fingers.
i no longer want them
no longer need them
not those warmth.
spared.
engulfing again.
this time not that bad.
choking in that feeling.
no one would understand.
not even you.
u don't need to.
be forgiving.
u are spared.
doesn't matter anymore.
why do i get uneasy when i heard of the name.
worked up.
intrusion.
can i not meet the person.
or hear the name.
i just don't like.
stop.
THROW MYSELF AWAY.
rolls down the garbage chute.
among the extreme odour, humidity and filthiness.
rats cockroach centipedes ants flies
creepies and crawlies.
let me just rot among them.
and not see light.
let me just decompose.
let the garbage truck just transport me to the incinerator.
crush me totally.
FULL STOP.
that's for imagining im some food waste.
i'm a waste.
TORNED
TEARED
that's us.
we tored each other to pieces
and mend them back.
irony.
mentally
physically
torture.
RAGH.
that's new year for me.
for us.
slipping away.
from those fingers.
i no longer want them
no longer need them
not those warmth.
spared.
engulfing again.
this time not that bad.
choking in that feeling.
no one would understand.
not even you.
u don't need to.
be forgiving.
u are spared.
doesn't matter anymore.
why do i get uneasy when i heard of the name.
worked up.
intrusion.
can i not meet the person.
or hear the name.
i just don't like.
stop.
THROW MYSELF AWAY.
rolls down the garbage chute.
among the extreme odour, humidity and filthiness.
rats cockroach centipedes ants flies
creepies and crawlies.
let me just rot among them.
and not see light.
let me just decompose.
let the garbage truck just transport me to the incinerator.
crush me totally.
FULL STOP.
that's for imagining im some food waste.
i'm a waste.
